How are you all? I hope you are well. I’ve had a tough day today. When I say tough I don’t necessarily mean physical or challenging. More the fact of having a teething baby who purely just wants a cuddle off his mummy. I absolutely love cuddles but I do find it frustrating when I can’t get things done. So I ended up watching a film when Baby L had a nap whilst having a cuddle on the sofa.
The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel.
I have seen it before, back in october 2012 when me and The L’s Papa went on holiday. I remember it made me cry back then but given the fact I have been overly emotional lately it didn’t half make me weep. During a quiet moment after watching it I started to think why? Why had this film really got to me? To be honest the film is suppose to be uplifting. It is a comedy and I did laugh but its the individual stories that I started to relate to. Even though I am only 27 years old and these characters are 50+ I find their individual stories touching.
“In India we have a saying, everything will be alright in the end, so if it is not alright, it is not yet the end”
This quote is more to do with the fact that the hotel these characters are staying in isn’t up to scratch, and it features about 20 minutes in but the words went over and over in my mind. Not even the fact that it’s said in India, it may or may not be, but the “everything will be alright in the end, so if it is not alright, then it is not the end” is something I need to start believing. I officially leave work next month, and a few months ago I set up a business which I intend to run from home. We always hoped we would be in a position that I wouldn’t have to work and thankfully we are, just need to cut down on the takeaways etc. But we always planned that I would start something up. Holiday money, extra spends, that kind of thing. But it hasn’t been easy, and its going to take some time to get going and sometimes I find I have days where I really wonder whether I am doing the right thing, whether it is going to be alright. Life is a journey and I need to remember that because things don’t seem ok now, it doesn’t mean that tomorrow, or the next day, is going to be the same.
“Old habits die hard”
Now this I can totally relate to. Old Habits. I can be lazy, I love giving myself an excuse not to do something and I especially can imagine myself to be the perfect housewife, the perfect businesswoman and the perfect mother in my head but then I give myself unrealistic targets and goals and end up crashing and burning. Its a habit. I have always been hard on myself and then when I don’t achieve what I want I feel sorry for myself. This is one habit I have to demolish.
For these characters going to somewhere like india is scary, overwhelming, out of the norm. But yet look at what courage they show to even take the plunge. To dive into a not so ordinary life.
“A new Different world, and to not just cope but to thrive”
Becoming a mum has changed my life. I wasn’t a maternal person, I didn’t have a natural ability to be around children, finding out I was pregnant was terrifying. It was a new world. One filled with nappies, baby sick and sleepless nights. A world that is now filled with teething and noise. But I not only cope, I thrive on looking after my baby boy. I have down days. I have had a lot of them if I’m absolutely honest. Days where I just cry, days where I walk into the kitchen and put my head in my hands. Days where I question every little thing that I do. But what I have now realised is thats me. That’s my way of dealing with things. Working things out. Moving on. I thrive, I don’t struggle which is what I keep telling myself. I thrive.
“why must you nitpick, it is not an attractive quality”
Now this is what I do. I nitpick at myself, and The L’s Papa. I moan, I feel sorry for myself. Why must I nitpick at things?
This character is timid, moans, likes the finer things in life. She has been thrust into a new world because her daughters business has not taken off that her and her husband invested in. They had no choice. She’s too scared to leave the hotel. Too frightened to take on new tastes and adventures. Sometimes I feel like that. A little frightened to take on the next adventure in my life because it is strange and new, when really it is exciting. My life is great. I shouldn’t moan or feel scared.
Never done anything for herself, always allowed her husband to do things. Never had any sense of independence. She needs to sell her house to cover her late husbands debt and she finds herself starting a blog (how appropriate) about her travels to the hotel and adventures in India. She has a sense of freedom and she takes it. I don’t have much in common with this character. I have my own life and independence. But I admire her self courage and new found confidence. Something I need to build on myself.
Played by Maggie Smith she is prejudice against indians. One of her lines “If I can’t pronounce it I won’t eat it” Makes me laugh every time. But whats lovely about this character is although she’s not accustomed to a different way of life other than HP sauce and PG Tips, towards the end she warms up to change. Life is all about change.
There are so many other characters but I could be here all day. I know this is a very random post but it was just my way of processing my thoughts. Having not done much other than cuddle my baby today I feel a little bit out of sorts. I hope that maybe one thing you do get from this is “it will be alright in the end, if it is not alright, then it is not the end” or maybe to just watch the film 🙂
Has there been any films you have watched recently that has been uplifting, or helped you process thoughts? Would love to hear your stories.